It’s been 10 days since my journey.
My life looks completely different today than it did 11 days ago.
First, I was sceptical. I’m the least woo-woo person alive. I’ve never had a spiritual side, have always been anxious, sceptical, analytical, insecure and depressed. My self-worth depended on my achievements at work. My relationships were fractured, because people don’t want to be intellectualised and cross-examined. Who knew?!
Due to the complexity and depth of my personal traumas, I expected the experience to be very difficult. Bernike told me over and over that the medicine would give me what I needed. She was right. It did. It showed me and reminded me of who I used to be and what my life could be like in future. Life will still be life, but for the first time, I’m not sabotaging my own efforts and relationships.
It’s not possible to put into words what my intentions were and how they were answered, but I can wholeheartedly say that I could not have hoped to gain more clarity from the experience than I did.
After 20 years of antidepressants and traditional therapy, I have for the first time really found an answer inside myself. I have been more alive in the last 10 days than I remember being in my entire adult life.
The space in which the journey took place was incredible. Really beautiful, comfortable and safe. She even made an amazing meal, and I got to cuddle her little angel on four legs, Bokkie.
Bernike is a gift. She was amazing from the very moment I met her, to the very end. I could not have hoped for someone better to guide me through this life-changing journey. Bernike has completely changed my life and I’ll be forever grateful to her. She embodies love, acceptance and tolerance.
I look forward to my next journey.